The first day of the rest of my life

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Tomorrow I start my journey to St Charles, MO. It’s a bitter sweet. I have my kids, grandkids and my mom here in Phoenix, AZ. I have made so many great friends here. My work pals are so wonderful! I am going to miss everyone so much. There is no question about that.

The purpose of this site is to let people see my journey. Not just my travel journey, but my emotional and spiritual journey as well. It’s real. It’s raw. And I’m not hiding anything.

This journey begins because the man I loved wholeheartedly, out of the blue, informed me he didn’t love me anymore. In fact, he told me he never loved me. Never mind that nearly 2 years ago he asked me to move in with him. About 6 months after we started dating he told me he loved me. Never mind all that.

Apparently he was pretending all that time. I am heart broken. He seemed absolutely perfect for me. We had the same retirement goals. We have the best time together being silly and sweet and working toward our goals together. We rarely, and I mean rarely, ever disagreed about anything. Forget about a fight. It was bliss. AND neither one of us wanted to get married again. It was perfect for us.

Except is wasn’t because he was pretending, apparently, the whole time. I don’t understand any of it and I never will. I’m not built like that. And I don’t want to ever be built like that.

So my life crumbled away in an instant and I have to once again rebuild. I’ll share more about my other “opportunities” for rebuilding another time.

I was struck with the reality that at the ripe old age of 50, I don’t have an income that allows for me to live on my own in my favorite location, Phoenix, AZ. How sad is that? When I shared this information with my friend Jill, in St Charles, MO, she said she thought it was the universe telling me I needed to move there.

But I love, love, love, love, love my job. And with my personal life a mess, I didn’t want to create a mess in my work life too. So I looked at the office in St Louis and lo-and-behold, they had my position open there. So I applied. And I got it. And I start on March 30th in spite of all this crazy virus stuff going on.

That’s right, I’m moving across country during this crazy mess. The traffic is going to be great! I have tried to anticipate every possible challenge I may encounter along the way. I even consulted with my dear friend Denise, who is a talented and knowledgeable speaker on the topic of Safety. She helped me think of a few more things as well.

So, with my 10′ UHaul packed up, my car on a transport dolly, and enough food to feed an army, I am ready to pull out of Phoenix when I wake up in the morning.

And here on this site, I will share my travels.